Vlog: Photoshoot with CC Brooks

Thoughts!!!! (Read If Bored)

Haven't written a blog in awhile so thought I'd write something... so there's two weeks before the Pan ams... I have 2 weeks of hard training.. this is probably by far the first year that I feel as though I could win my division...alot of people who don't compete don't realize how hard it is to even win a match! Let alone winning your division. You have another guy who you don't know from squat who's been training his ass off to beat you down... as hard as you're training if not harder...taking supplements... and for those that take steriods...and shit like that good luck cause I'm still gonna beat you! I don't take any of that shit.. just a protein shake in the morning or else I couldn't function through Johannes's workouts...HAHAHAAH... anyways I'm ready!! Alot's been going on... work is draining... I feel like I'm responsible for the business's but without the pay lol.... anything goes wrong I'm the one that gets called to figure out how to fix it..draining...I hate work... I need a job to pay some one to do my work for me....lol... Ok so I decided Fuck acting... I quit the classes... paid half up front but don't really care because it's not for me... I fid that I'm in a rut...same bullshit as people same bullshit as problems.. I don't feel anything...just going through the motions.... I over think everything so probably the reason why I'm single... I get told that I think I know everything..."I'm always Right"... Fuck I hate that... you know It's usually people who don't know my past or my interactions with friends and family... growing up I was the guy that was lazy...unreliable... didn't give a shit about helping anyone and those opinions I did have the only people I would talk about it with would be Christian or Saad... since the millitary I've become the one that people confide it... come to when they have problems... why I don't know since I'm the MOST Fucked up person but I guess maybe I look like I am the  type that won't judge?? I don't know... but if I hear someone tell me I seem like a know it all one more time I'm gonna scream....HAHAHAHHAAH.... I need to do a video blog... Gonna get a new camera soon... doing research on a good brand. Where do one legged gilrs work at?   IHOP.....HAHAHAHhA... I need some drugs... maybe that'll make my life more interesting... the more fucked up i am the less I will give a Fuck... Anyways mad propps to Charlie Sheen... He's Fucked up... Live your life till you die!!!!

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