Ok so I never really blog anymore....don't really get on myspace that much except to delete spam from page...hit that shit! Everybody is all into Lady Gaga...I could care less about that shit either....recently my family has been going through turmoil...well my mom for the most part...having to deal with a pussy ass husband who's only concern is that of himself!!! You know I tried to be neutral because my whole life I spent it having hate in my heart for both parents...then I went through the millitary..grew up and wanted to be a different person...be closer to the family..well at least attempt to be....but then back in November I confront my dad and find out all kinds of shit...him cheating...their sex life...just crap that honestly I would've been better off not knowing....well you get what you ask for....now It seems like everyone wants to tell me their problems hoping that I can fix it...but I can't...my dad wants some other woman..even though all the stuff my mom has been through...how can he sit there look me in my eyes and tell me he's tired of her? This isn't some fucking girl off the streets this is my mom you are talking about....shit I care alot about both of them but lets face it I'd probably choose her over him just because I see how much more she's sacrificed for her immediate family then he has....his concerns are for his brothers and sisters in nigeria....but he's sat there his whole life helping them...but when his own son asks for twenty dollars for gas he throws a tantrom...I'm Grown....then what about your sisters and brothers?? You want to leave my mom for some Fucking bitch that odds on you'll do the same shit to....Fucker!!!! Man I'm so pissed about all of this but it's hard to really verbalize this so it's better to write this down...I don't care who knows because it's the truth right? I'm no saint but if I got married...If...no cheating....don't believe in divorce but if it came to it then hey I'd have to....but I don't want to get married...it's a load of crap....BULLSHIT!!! You hippocrate Motherfucker!!! I stay up every fucking night tossing and turning thinking of what to do to help my mom and the sad part Is I think of what to do to help your bitch ass too even though you don't deserve it...I wish you two could get along...I wish!!!! But that's not reality...truth be told if anything happens to either one of you it would crush me...I HATE THAT FEELING!!!!!
THe Black Spiderman
Wow I miss venting....gotta do this more...feels good...
